My last blog post was more than a year back now. I almost forgot that I actually do have a blog. My blogging mood is back at the wrong timing as it's the middle of AS right now. This fifteen minutes could be spent on statistics but I really want to type some nonsense.
My first two papers were alright but the coming papers are those that I've not been preparing well. I'm nervous and stressed up at the same time trying to sort out all the theories and concepts with my brain. I've clearly wasted two days sleeping and also finishing a reality show series that is only ten episodes long (thank god) and also suffering from this pain which seems like there's no ending to it. All I want to do is just sleep because that's the only way to escape. Hopefully by tomorrow I'll feel much better. BECAUSE I NEED TO STUDY.
On the side note, I've been getting lazier as exams goes on. I feel numb for being in the learning hub for the past two months everyday doing nothing but studying from day till night. I feel that I've actually lost myself. Never in my life that I can sit down for six to ten hours per day in front of books doing maths and bio structural questions. I guess A-levels just controlled my life, in a bad way somehow.
But also am so grateful to have people with me everyday, battling together to keep my loneliness occupied. Nonetheless there's still this spot in my heart which feels empty. Guess I miss home aye? And I miss high school too funny enough. Isn't it funny when all of us wants to graduate from high school to enter college and be cool with no uniforms but now all we want to do is to have blackboards, chalks and also long green pants and pinafores. Don't get me wrong, I still enjoy college quite a bit.
Shall hit the books and continue as a nerd for another month. Pretty sure I can do this right. Just another month. I'll be back soon. I should totally be frequent here.
- I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it.-
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