546am thoughts

It's 5:46 I should totally be sleeping but I can't seem to fall asleep. Just watched some YouTube videos and I can't get over how sweet the couple was. Me and my Korean drama fantasies. It's Monday and A2 is starting on Friday lasting only for two weeks unlike AS. But I wish my papers can be more spread out so that I can have one paper each week sigh I can't imagine the amount of stress I'll encounter for these upcoming three weeks but I just want to do my best. Never have I thought that I'll be sitting for A2. I've always been prepared to drop out after my AS results which did not turned out to be as good as expected but I'm grateful that it was much better than my trials. I know A2 will be different. To be honest I have no confidence in doing well this time. I don't feel prepared at all and I'm not prepared. There's no time left and the only thing I can do now is to do as many past papers as I can and try to remember all the concepts and theories. That won't happen tho. There's too much to remember. I feel like the jump from AS to A2 is similar from PMR to SPM. it's tough especially when you only have 5 months to absorb the whole syllabus. 

I've been losing focus so much lately. I can't get the exam motivation, I slack and sleep and go online procrastinating at the very best. There's so much pressure that I can't handle it anymore. I just hate exams. It's so hard to put myself to sleep early and get myself out of bed getting my day started when I know all I'm gonna do today is just more and more past papers, more than more studying. Where's my life? And thinking about meeting my uni requirements adds even more pressure. 

I have so much that I want to blog about but I'll do it after my finals. 

Good night ZzzZzz